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Name: Omaka
Country: United States
State: Michigan
Birthday: 5/13/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: working out, drawing, listening to music such as linkin park, evanescence, a perfect circle, lifehouse, 3doors down, temptations, Kool and the gang, the Commidors, Louis armstrong, najee, Black Eyed Peas. I also like to read theology. My fav bible book is Revalations. I enjoy dogs, watchin good movies, comics, martial arts though I'm not very good at any of them myself. i just found a new passion about history. Most of all, God. Lastly, i like taking time out for deep thought.
Expertise: Well, i'd like to think i'm pretty gosh darn good at drawing.
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Member Since:
5/29/2003
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| I love you all. I'm sorry if I haven't allways been there for you. I'm
sorry if I've ever been too self involved to worry about what's going
on with you. I'm sorry for every prayer I promised you would be in, but
never got around to it. And I'm sorry if my fear of EVERYTHING has
gotten in the way of making you happy, proud, fulfilled, or proud. God,
that goes for you too. God, that goes for especially you. To all of you
who I never took the time to simply remember your name...and i still
can't remember your name..I'm sorry. I'm sorry for every promise I
haven't kept. I'm sorry for every lie I ever told. So many of you have
been there for me..have prayed for me...have taught me new
things....and have had a part in the man I am becoming. So, I thank you
and i am, once again, sorry. I am weak, frail, lost and selfish. But
I'm working on becoming a better man. I'm working on becoming a true
Godly man...and a true friend. I love you all. God bless.
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| Hello, everyone
I haven't visited my xanga in along time, so I
thought I'd drop in. If you didn't know, it is one minute until my
birthday is over....I'll probably finish writing this after twelve AM
March 3. That's right. My B-day is March 2nd. I am officially eighteen
and legal. YAY!!!! I hope everything is going well for everyone. I'll
be back soon. I love you all and God bless.
This is Omaka signing off.
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| Hello, everyone
I haven't visited my xanga in along time, so I
thought I'd drop in. If you didn't know, it is one minute until my
birthday is over....I'll probably finish writing this after twelve AM
March 3. That's right. My B-day is March 2nd. I am officially eighteen
and legal. YAY!!!! I hope everything is going well for everyone. I'll
be back soon. I love you all and God bless.
This is Omaka signing off.
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| Hey, everyone. i apologize for some of the words i used in the last
entry. i was very upset, but should not have said those things. See
y'all soon. god bless.
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| You know, I hate freakin caring for people! I hate not knowing what
they want from you! I hate it when people want you to play the guessing
game! Why can't we ever be honest with eachother! Think of someone who
you love! Do it! I have no point of demanding this of you. You make one
up. figure something out about them or yourself......I hate
waiting....I hate thinking.....i hate wanting....I hate needing......I
hate falling....I hate hating......My father called today. I freakin
hate him. Why the crap was he not there? Huh?! Why the crap did i have
to question myself my whole life because of him? HUH?!! i'm not his
son. I never was. He has two freakin sons. and they are just freakin
dandy! They had a father. they are a man's sons. You know, they look
just like me. It's uncanny. but they have everything I
didn't....strength, confidence, luck. I had to work my but off just to
get the scraps i have. I'm reading a book about the wounds a boy gets
from his crappy ass father! I don't freakin need him! I don't need
anyone! That's what i say..."i'll be somone""I'll do something" Anger
never makes someone great!..........Allways
optimistic.............allways wanting faith.....don't have too much. I
have belief and fear. but no destiny yet. atleast no knowledge of it. I
don't have a name. a boy is supposed to get his name from his father.
he's supposed to carry on a legacy. i was named after my dead beat
stepfather who became a criminal and treated my mom like shit. It means
"brave warrior", omaka does. i allways tell people it to cover up the
shame i have in it. Omaka Smith was his name. A fuckin hero he
was....not! Deadbeats and assholes. That's who i have to look up to.
Did you know that there was supposedly another man who was possibly my
father. His name was Jesus Gomez. Ooohh! Maybe I'm Jesus' kid! Ha! as I
get struck by lightning.AAAARRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! FUCKING IDIOTS!!!
UNWORTHY! USELESS!!! That's what they are!! Maybe that's why i feel the
way I am. maybe that's why I hope to be extraordinary...ordinary could
never cope with the pieces of dung that they are. One day... I will be
great. I'll be a great man. A great christian. My true father, God,
will be proud of me. I'll surpass their worthlessness, and do it with a
smile on my face. not with anger creating determination. I won't have
to hide. I won't hate them anymore.
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